I left my husband and love another man
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Please can someone help me?...Last summer I came to the end of my rope
in my marriage. We had become very unhealthy in many ways as a couple.
From the beginning 15 years ago I knew it was not real for me, but got
pregnant & compelled to marry. I do care about him, we now have two
children together 14 year old son and 11 year old daughter. But it got
bad for me and for him too he lost his faith in God, and I just lost
myself. I do not want to go back to the marriage mostly because I love
another, but because too, I cannot stomach the thought of having to be
with my husband again. The children are angry at me for hurting their
dad and have chosen to move 500 miles away to live with him. I am
trying
to get separation papers agreed on, so the divorce can go through but
he
is making it very difficult. He now beleives in God again and is trying
to convince me that I must go back that it is Gods will. Yet he also
tells me he hopes I rot in hell...I have hurt him many times in our
marriage, he has hurt me in subtle ways, unknown ways to others. I just
dont think I could ever go back.But I am in such anguish over the pain
of losing my children over this and wonder if I am now out of Gods will
for my life.The story goes on and on,..I am so alone and isolated I
feel
like no one can really help me I am becomming desperate because
whichever way I turn feels like it will kill me. I am going to church
again, the one I love is also seeking God, will I be able to stay with
him and have peace or does God want something from me that I feel I
cannot give? ...This is my request that someone ask God for divine
knowledge for what I should do because I cannot trust anything that
comes from within myself...Please a word from God...anyone?? thanks,
Lisa
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Messages
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To Lisa about leaving husband for another by rose, 5/14/00 
Reply by Edward Kway, 4/11/00
How I wish my wife is writing... by Geraldy, 5/06/00
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