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I've been there...
doing the things that you did...a few years back.. I thank God for his forgiveness of my sins, that he cleansed me, forgive me and fill me with the Holy Spirit to guide me and for me to walk right with Him. It's the old self, our past ignorant life. God will clothed you with His new clothes. Seek Him. Forget the past. In a marriage, we always think that it is between the 2 of us - the Husband and Wife. But I strongly believe that there is more. GOd has to be the centre of the marriage and family, for Him to do wonderful things. It's good that you had gone back to God. I was battered, was involved in sexual encounters, the worse that you can think of... but I went back to God. I didn't in my past and I thank God for saving me and eventually the family, for taking me out of the pit and gracious to forgive me. Commit the marriage to God. Pray for your husband and yourself. Pray that God will reveal to you how love-making could be more meaningful and enjoyable. And God will reveal to you. I left home, and went back about 3 months ago, so-called honeymoon period is over. However, now we have a better understanding of each other, trying our best to meet each other's needs. Open your heart to God. Pray for forgiveness of our past sins. Pray for your husband too. His salvation and God's grace upon Him. Presistent prayer done from your heart is important. GOd listens to prayer as such. I would also suggest a book by Stormie Omantian (Stormie is definitely correct, not really sure about the surname though) called Power of a Praying wife, and you will discover that prayer works. Pray. Believe. God will listen. God Bless
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